I don’t really like Christian “labels” but I think of myself as an evangelical (i.e. I believe we have Good News and so should not be greedy but be ready to share it) and charismatic (i.e. I believe that the gifts of the Holy Spirit are for today). I also freely acknowledge that it is only by God’s grace that I have a relationship with him at all and the only way that came about was by Jesus dying in my place on the cross for my sins. I know that there is absolutely nothing I can do to earn God’s love and any “Good Deeds” I attempt are but “filthy rags” before him. God took the initiative in calling me back to himself.
I still regularly get it wrong and blow it. However God’s love for me is so amazing that when I acknowledge that I’ve messed up and ask him to forgive me he is quick and ready to do so.
I have been writing these poems / “Spoken Words” for quite a while now and have used a few of them in various Church/Christian Union settings. So why have I created this hybrid blog now?
I have always known that my writings were not just a communication between God and me but were something to be shared to help others. Initially I looked into producing them as a book but could not find a way to make this happen. With the advances in IT over the last decade it’s now much easier for an individual to “publish” work. Over the last 3 years I’ve felt God’s direction stronger and stronger to use something like a Blog to allow others to read what I’ve written.
But I kept on saying words to the effect “OK God I hear what you’re saying, I’ll get round to it soon” (but never did). Then in August 2016 I went to the Newday festival (http://newdaygeneration.org/festival/) with no other aim but to serve the young people in our Church. God had other ideas! Whilst sorting out a number of things in me he impressed on me that he wanted me to have the courage to step out and do the things he’s asking me to do and to do them when he asks me to do them. He impressed on me that I was to create this Blog/home for my writings NOW and that I was to use the name “Icarus”.
Why hide behind a pseudonym? I hear you ask. Well firstly because God told me to. Secondly so that He gets the glory not me (I’m just a conduit in this case). Thirdly so that people will read and evaluate my writings on their own merit without adding any possible judgements based on who I am and where I live.
What I will say, however, is that my name is Neil. I live in the South East of the UK (South Buckinghamshire to be precise, in ear shot of the M40) and have a full-time secular job. God has blessed me with a very patient and understanding wife and two great kids who have taught me more about God’s father’s love towards me than they will probably ever know. I go to a small Church in our village which is part of New Frontiers International.
Whilst proof reading the above I’m aware of how I’m describing the way God speaks to me. I do hope that I’ve not offended anyone. However the truth is that Gods knows me better than anyone else in the world. He sees all I do both publicly and privately and the thoughts that go through my head. Yet he still loves me with an unending love.